real life.

you never really know what being a mom is like until you have your own children. 

its hard, its tiring, its long days, its exhausting,

its fun, its loving, its rewarding, and it's the best thing ever.

i'm speaking for myself, who only has 1 child. 

and i don't even want to imagine having another for a long time. 

i see moms with like 5 kids or even 2 and I'm like 

HOW ARE YOU ALIVE?

there are times when you want to do something, 

but you literally can't because baby comes first.

like during the middle of the night, when you want to keep sleeping...

but baby has other plans for you.

and you literally can't just ignore them (well, i guess you could buuut)

or when you need to go somewhere but your trying to have a somewhat similar

daily nap routine and you've been doing so well,

and you can't just throw it for a loop now.

the house is a mess, but my only time to really clean is while baby sleeps,

and so help me, i might accidentally make a noise that will wake her up...

so yeah, i'm not going to risk it.

i should go grocery shopping so we have something to eat for dinner,

but its 35 degrees out and i don't want to put normal clothes on (currently in my sweats @ noon)

and when i get home with the groceries, i will have to make like 4 trips

cause i have too many groceries to carry, plus a car seat, plus those gallons of milk.

so i'll just leave them in the car for a while. it is cold enough, right?

there are 4 loads of laundry to get done.

and the apartment doesn't have a washer and dryer inside.

so i get to go out in the cold, carrying one load at a time across the complex

then i have to go back 30 minutes later to switch it,

then an hour later to make 4 more trips to carry it all back.

and then trying to fold it all without the babe grabbing it and unfolding it.

after finally getting the courage to tackle those dishes in the sink,

you walk over to the couch to sit down, and you hear little whines 

coming from baby's room, knowing she is waking up. 

and its like c'mon don't you want to sleep for like 30 more minutes?

i could go on, but most of them have to do with me not getting enough sleep.

and i'm really not trying to just complain here.

i'm really here to tell you how busy life gets 

and sometimes you just want to sit down for 5 minutes and do nothing.

but sometimes you just can't.

maybe in 20 years.

but for now, i will love my days how they are.

and i wouldn't trade them for a thing.

because yes, having a child is hard, but its also the best thing ever.

though, i am really looking forward to that solid week long nap in 20 years from now.

that will be nice. real nice.

(i commend all you mama's out there with more than 1 child-

i am in no way, shape or form, ready to take on another one yet)

and a picture of my sweet sweet child, 

because who wants to read a blog with no pictures?

not me.