secret.

not that i dont like my car or anything.

but.. every time i get into it i have this crazy thing go on in my head.

it goes like this

i'm casually driving.

for one of many reasons i have to slow down.

[traffic]

[stop sign]

[stop light]

[car in front of me slows down]

who knows

but i automatically look in my rear view mirror 

check to see how fast the car behind me is going

secretly hoping that it is coming full speed so that it can total my car

and then i imagine myself getting tensed up for the big hit

then from the force of being hit i slam into the car in front of me

but i dont even get hurt cause i was prepared

[but i secretly imagine myself getting carried away by an ambulance]

and then miraculously my car is totaled and now the insurance has to give me money

and then i get a new car

cool thought huh?

i dont even try to make myself think of that.

it just happens.

every time.

i dont even need a new car.

i want one.